Saturday, May 17, 2003
YuCk
This morning I went running, well actually walking half the way. I was so dissapointed in myself. I let Erin go way ahead of me, and she made it all the way home and then she drove to come pick me up at the club. ew, thats bad. in my defense, it is getting WAY hotter out and we went at like 10. but still i was dissapointed that i couldn't make it, it wasn't even that far, and we weren't even going that fast. I know I'm not fat, and i really annoy people when i say that, but i use to be damn skinny and noncelulity when i was in soccer and i could eat WHATEVER my little heart desired. Now i'm pretty sure i eat more, and more UNhealthy, and i dont work out as much as i should. I can't stand trying on my clothes from the BEGINNING of the school year and having them be too tight. I feel gross, lazy, and pig-ish. My mom says when she was in shape bla bla bla, she keeps mentioning i dont look good in these pants or my stomach is hanging out or wow leah your lookin outa shape. It's not that i care THAT much, but I am living an unhealthy life and i think i would be much more content with myself if i worked out more and ate less.
This morning I went running, well actually walking half the way. I was so dissapointed in myself. I let Erin go way ahead of me, and she made it all the way home and then she drove to come pick me up at the club. ew, thats bad. in my defense, it is getting WAY hotter out and we went at like 10. but still i was dissapointed that i couldn't make it, it wasn't even that far, and we weren't even going that fast. I know I'm not fat, and i really annoy people when i say that, but i use to be damn skinny and noncelulity when i was in soccer and i could eat WHATEVER my little heart desired. Now i'm pretty sure i eat more, and more UNhealthy, and i dont work out as much as i should. I can't stand trying on my clothes from the BEGINNING of the school year and having them be too tight. I feel gross, lazy, and pig-ish. My mom says when she was in shape bla bla bla, she keeps mentioning i dont look good in these pants or my stomach is hanging out or wow leah your lookin outa shape. It's not that i care THAT much, but I am living an unhealthy life and i think i would be much more content with myself if i worked out more and ate less.
Thursday, May 15, 2003
Tired
I need to learn to manage my time. Why am I up so late? Why am I writing in my blog when I could be sleeping or actually doing my homework? I just don't get it.
I need to learn to manage my time. Why am I up so late? Why am I writing in my blog when I could be sleeping or actually doing my homework? I just don't get it.
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
working out, songs, and annoying people
I worked out today! and then i ran even more! yay, I'm going to get in shape, eat healthy, and look damn good in a bikini by the summer, (if my plan works out, which knowing that i only enjoy unhealthy food, probably won't)
I have a website for all my songs, its www.whoknowsreallysongs.blogspot.com if you'd like to check it out, i dont know how to add comments, but if you have any you could always just comment on one of these entries... i guess... if ya want...anyway have a great day well night, or whatever.
people can be rude, that's just the way it is. don't let it get to you. I decided just becuase some people annoy me sometimes, doesn't mean i shouldn't be friends with them. (not talking imperticularly about the person in my last entry, just people in general) I really don't think people try to be mean, and if they are, they are doing it for a certain reason, not to just be mean. maybe they want to look cool, maybe they are jealous. If you read my previous entries, you know I get annoyed by MANY people, like, i can't stand them. but then i talked to one of the girls and shes not that bad, although i still get super annoyed of her, i cannot say i hate her, she's a nice person, and she doesn't mean any harm. but i still talk crap about her, sorry, im one of those rude people too. but mostly, i just do it to be funny to the people i say it too, (rude of me huh? get over it), i would feel so bad if she heard anything i said, but really, whenever i say something, i always say, "i mean, she is a nice girl though." so at least i give her credit. Don't think I'm a bad person, okay? thanks.
I worked out today! and then i ran even more! yay, I'm going to get in shape, eat healthy, and look damn good in a bikini by the summer, (if my plan works out, which knowing that i only enjoy unhealthy food, probably won't)
I have a website for all my songs, its www.whoknowsreallysongs.blogspot.com if you'd like to check it out, i dont know how to add comments, but if you have any you could always just comment on one of these entries... i guess... if ya want...anyway have a great day well night, or whatever.
people can be rude, that's just the way it is. don't let it get to you. I decided just becuase some people annoy me sometimes, doesn't mean i shouldn't be friends with them. (not talking imperticularly about the person in my last entry, just people in general) I really don't think people try to be mean, and if they are, they are doing it for a certain reason, not to just be mean. maybe they want to look cool, maybe they are jealous. If you read my previous entries, you know I get annoyed by MANY people, like, i can't stand them. but then i talked to one of the girls and shes not that bad, although i still get super annoyed of her, i cannot say i hate her, she's a nice person, and she doesn't mean any harm. but i still talk crap about her, sorry, im one of those rude people too. but mostly, i just do it to be funny to the people i say it too, (rude of me huh? get over it), i would feel so bad if she heard anything i said, but really, whenever i say something, i always say, "i mean, she is a nice girl though." so at least i give her credit. Don't think I'm a bad person, okay? thanks.
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
Choir concert/ vent of the week
It was pretty fun. I met someone new in vocal ensemble who cracked me up, i had a blast with him back stage. We will probably never see each other again though, he's a senior. Oh well. I was excited to see that Daniel came. But then I found out that he came for the extra credit, which according to him was just a bonus. But annnyways, nothing really that fun happened, I didnt have a solo or anything. I tried out with the song i wrote for joel, but i didnt make it, im hoping only because he wanted to give it to all the seniors.
I'm starting to get annoyed of my friend. She is pretty selfish, when i ask her a question, or tell her something important to me, she'll change it around to her problem or just start talking about the boy she likes. And, she knows she's prettier than me. Now, i dont really care that she is prettier than me, i think so, itd be cool if she knew so, but she makes it obvious that she knows. Even our other friend gets annoyed when she says how pretty she (as in the other friend) is and that she needs to die so she can be the pretty one. I'm like, i get it, im frickin ugly, can you please not remind me every second, thanks. Or when i said all my bad features and then she like added on, so i tried to get back at her by saying something bad about her, (but i really wouldnt) so said that her eyelashes were too short (like who cares i was just trying to be funny) and then the next day she says that mine are just as short as hers. im like wow who the puck cares. in conclusion, i hate mirrors and i hate it when people act like mirrors.
ps, please dont comment and say im pretty, thats not why i wrote this, ive been annoyed for a while and its kinda good to get it out, so if you want to comment you can say, ya that is rude of her. thanks =)
It was pretty fun. I met someone new in vocal ensemble who cracked me up, i had a blast with him back stage. We will probably never see each other again though, he's a senior. Oh well. I was excited to see that Daniel came. But then I found out that he came for the extra credit, which according to him was just a bonus. But annnyways, nothing really that fun happened, I didnt have a solo or anything. I tried out with the song i wrote for joel, but i didnt make it, im hoping only because he wanted to give it to all the seniors.
I'm starting to get annoyed of my friend. She is pretty selfish, when i ask her a question, or tell her something important to me, she'll change it around to her problem or just start talking about the boy she likes. And, she knows she's prettier than me. Now, i dont really care that she is prettier than me, i think so, itd be cool if she knew so, but she makes it obvious that she knows. Even our other friend gets annoyed when she says how pretty she (as in the other friend) is and that she needs to die so she can be the pretty one. I'm like, i get it, im frickin ugly, can you please not remind me every second, thanks. Or when i said all my bad features and then she like added on, so i tried to get back at her by saying something bad about her, (but i really wouldnt) so said that her eyelashes were too short (like who cares i was just trying to be funny) and then the next day she says that mine are just as short as hers. im like wow who the puck cares. in conclusion, i hate mirrors and i hate it when people act like mirrors.
ps, please dont comment and say im pretty, thats not why i wrote this, ive been annoyed for a while and its kinda good to get it out, so if you want to comment you can say, ya that is rude of her. thanks =)
Monday, May 12, 2003
The rest of my weekend and today
well mothers day was quite a blast. or not. i had to constantly remind myself of the holiday so that i would not say anything when my mom said something dumb. well today was an average day. at lunch i sat with rob who described everything i didnt understand in Xmen, (i saw X2 on saturday night after seeing my sisters play and she should have gotten the lead) i didnt realize that there was much more to the movie than what i thought. I decided i want to be a mutant, it would be so fun. Also, im pretty easily scared, so like at night, in the dark, if anything was scary i could be like eh who cares, whatever it is, i can kill. ya know? it'd be frickin awesome!
well mothers day was quite a blast. or not. i had to constantly remind myself of the holiday so that i would not say anything when my mom said something dumb. well today was an average day. at lunch i sat with rob who described everything i didnt understand in Xmen, (i saw X2 on saturday night after seeing my sisters play and she should have gotten the lead) i didnt realize that there was much more to the movie than what i thought. I decided i want to be a mutant, it would be so fun. Also, im pretty easily scared, so like at night, in the dark, if anything was scary i could be like eh who cares, whatever it is, i can kill. ya know? it'd be frickin awesome!
