Thursday, January 15, 2004
Little things are annoying me. and that annoys me. back to what i said yesterday, i really need to not think too hard about dumb things. i know she/he didnt mean it that way. i know they dont try to flaunt it right in front of me. i know she/he is not trying to make me jealous. and i know she/he is not mad at me. but i'm not positive. and i know i'm being selfish and rude and snappy. and i am sorry.
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
A loss of confidence...
in my music, looks, intelligence, etc
i cant think too much, it makes me want to cry. i used to be more happy with who i was. now i just feel i am not enough.
in my music, looks, intelligence, etc
i cant think too much, it makes me want to cry. i used to be more happy with who i was. now i just feel i am not enough.
Monday, January 12, 2004
Procrastination
yup. that is what is going on. i think i have read more journals tonight than usual when i dont have any homework.
yup. i am trying to think of things i could say.
yup. the same thing happened today as it does everyday.
i was sad a little, annoyed a little, alone a little, stressed a little, happy a little, had fun a little, ate a little, ha oh wait, that never happens, but it did today. but other than that nooooooothing is going on.
i want something. unique. i want to feel special and important to someone. and a hot muscular rich smart cute loving boy could be up for that role. no i am just joking. but seriously, i am sick of not knowing, and immature "relationships." i want something substantial. i want someone, who can keep me interested and who i really really like, to feel the same way about me, and i want to be sure of that. is that wanting too much?
yup. that is what is going on. i think i have read more journals tonight than usual when i dont have any homework.
yup. i am trying to think of things i could say.
yup. the same thing happened today as it does everyday.
i was sad a little, annoyed a little, alone a little, stressed a little, happy a little, had fun a little, ate a little, ha oh wait, that never happens, but it did today. but other than that nooooooothing is going on.
i want something. unique. i want to feel special and important to someone. and a hot muscular rich smart cute loving boy could be up for that role. no i am just joking. but seriously, i am sick of not knowing, and immature "relationships." i want something substantial. i want someone, who can keep me interested and who i really really like, to feel the same way about me, and i want to be sure of that. is that wanting too much?
Sunday, January 11, 2004
heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
okay so.... um yeah. they are together, pch, who cares.
people are selfish. i am selfish. why do i still care for you? i cant figure it out! i dont even think about you any other time, then as soon as i see you i want to be with you. whatever.
i miss my best friend. i love her.
i hope i am visible this week. to you and you and you.
oh i forgot to say i made the school play. i am not the lead but my character has a name, yay. last year i was a beach/ ball go-er.
okay so.... um yeah. they are together, pch, who cares.
people are selfish. i am selfish. why do i still care for you? i cant figure it out! i dont even think about you any other time, then as soon as i see you i want to be with you. whatever.
i miss my best friend. i love her.
i hope i am visible this week. to you and you and you.
oh i forgot to say i made the school play. i am not the lead but my character has a name, yay. last year i was a beach/ ball go-er.
