What is beautiful?

i have finally filled a gap, answered the questions and resolved what there was to relating to that gap. a new feeling of emptiness is now present. time will tell.

i wrote a new song. tell me what you think by clicking on lyrics.

AN EVEN SICKER DAY

My body aches. i was planning on going to school today, but i woke up at 2 o clock in the morning, and didnt fall back asleep till nearly 5. i turned to the side, other side, on my stomach, on my back, sat up, and nothing was comfortable. Everything made me either dizzy or stuffy or made me feel like i needed to throw up. well enough complaining. i just hope this ends soon.

Sick Day

my face hurts. i think i went through at least 80 tissues and had to cover my face after 5 sneezes or more.

you know what is the weirdest feeling in the world? when your foot falls asleep. like all the way. i couldnt even walk. i dont think my foot has ever been so sleepy. its still tingly.

ALTO! EN EL NOMBRE DE AMOR! ANTES DE TU ROMPE MI CORAZON!

This damn record keeps breaking

i set myself up for failure too often. I'm sorry, i know i dont deserve another chance, or you for that matter. i am selfish and lonely probably becuase of that.

stupid leah, up until 12:30, gathering memories for no purpose.

We should determine our own happiness. We shouldnt let things on the outside have so much affect inside. I think teenagers, especially, make things worse for themselves. I do it too...one thing goes wrong and im like well screw it, it'll just be a bad day. then everything that normally wouldnt be so bad turns out worse. Looking over my day today, it was pretty good. I mean, compared to people where a good day is when their father doesnt beat them, or they get to eat. I complain way to much. I was pretty upset this morning, becuase i didnt make regional choir. i was really looking forward to it. I made it last year, i thought there was no way i wouldnt make it. I think it's worse when you expect good things too. Other than that though, and waking up late and looking like trash, nothing really went too wrong. But becuase those things happened in the morning, i took things personally when i shouldnt have, which made me be rude to people when i shouldnt have. yeah, thats the end of my story or theory or whatever.

"You're so tired of the straight line, that everywhere you turn, there's vultures and thieves at your back."

"please remember, our time together, when time was yours and mine and we were wild and free. please remember, please remember, me."

it's sad i cannot be trusted. it's sad i cannot be taken seriously. sad and irritating. whateva.