Thursday, July 31, 2003
a whole bunch of boring
well, nothing really exciting or super sad has happened to me lately. sorry. anyway, i hung out with this girl the other night who i used to be really close to, but somehow we drifted apart. it was really fun, i was almost nervous that things would be a little awkward, but they werent at all so it was really cool. i did feel guilty, however, for not being the one to call her to hang out.
im starting to question if i am realy friends with the right people. in general i mean. i closed off a lot of people. im not the one that makes an effort, and i hate that. but i rarely call people and ask if they want to hang out or do this or this. maybe i figure if someone wants to hang out they will call. or maybe im just lazy. one of my friends, who i love to hang out with, but do only occassionally, said she sometimes felt dumb for calling me becuase i never call her. i felt soo bad, because its not like i dont want to hang out with her. lately, if no one calls me at night, i just sit at home the entire night, accomplishing nothing. im going to try to break this habit. i will call people to hang out, or at least ill work on it.
well, nothing really exciting or super sad has happened to me lately. sorry. anyway, i hung out with this girl the other night who i used to be really close to, but somehow we drifted apart. it was really fun, i was almost nervous that things would be a little awkward, but they werent at all so it was really cool. i did feel guilty, however, for not being the one to call her to hang out.
im starting to question if i am realy friends with the right people. in general i mean. i closed off a lot of people. im not the one that makes an effort, and i hate that. but i rarely call people and ask if they want to hang out or do this or this. maybe i figure if someone wants to hang out they will call. or maybe im just lazy. one of my friends, who i love to hang out with, but do only occassionally, said she sometimes felt dumb for calling me becuase i never call her. i felt soo bad, because its not like i dont want to hang out with her. lately, if no one calls me at night, i just sit at home the entire night, accomplishing nothing. im going to try to break this habit. i will call people to hang out, or at least ill work on it.
