Wednesday, January 21, 2004
wOw,
when other people become happy, i become even more sad. how lame. Don't think less of me, becuase i know everyone can sometimes feel this way. i just, dont want to. i think i am being selfish, or rather i know i am. i know things wont work out for me. geez. and i hope they do for you, but, well, i suppose i am just jealous. yes, thats it. Is being jealous selfish? i am not sure. probably. I am too competitive with things. Why cant i look like that, why cant i sing like that, why cant i write like that, why cant i.....well why cant i be happy with myself?
when other people become happy, i become even more sad. how lame. Don't think less of me, becuase i know everyone can sometimes feel this way. i just, dont want to. i think i am being selfish, or rather i know i am. i know things wont work out for me. geez. and i hope they do for you, but, well, i suppose i am just jealous. yes, thats it. Is being jealous selfish? i am not sure. probably. I am too competitive with things. Why cant i look like that, why cant i sing like that, why cant i write like that, why cant i.....well why cant i be happy with myself?
