What is beautiful?

i wrote this 4/21/03:
this is a song i wrote for joel, who died in a drive-by shooting,

joel-

i didn't even know you
but i still miss seeing your face
i've never even talked to you before
but im not sure
why it had to happen to you, to you

no there was no reason
no he had no reason
you didnt deserve this

why'd he have to do that
i don't understand
i wish you could come back
and change what happened that night, that night

no one could explain
and no one should go through this pain
you were so innocent

and the sky was gray today
but i could still feel your presence
the cold wind hit my face
like a touch of innocence

thank god my mom said i couldn't go
thank god the other lives were saved oh
oh god i wish that i had known, joel

i missed out

i didnt even know him
but i still miss seein his face
i've never even talked to him before
but i am sure
hes in a much better place, better place

(oh)
he touched so many lives
i wish i, knew how

i missed out, i missed out, i missed out.